The best job a woman can have is being a wife and a mother

This is saying that you will hear me say OFTEN! And I truly do mean it.  Yes I do plan on having a job outside of the house, but no matter how hard being a mom/wife will be, I will love doing that first.  I know that y'all are probably wondering if I am so ready to be a wife and mom then why I am waiting.  Well I will gladly answer that.  First, we promised my dad that we wouldn't get married until I graduate.  Thanks to me switching majors (twice) and switching school, I have been put a year behind..  Trust me this sucks.  And there are days that I literally lay down and cry because I am so sick of it.  I know that y'all who are married are like dude it is not that big of deal and it is more stressful, but I just hate college and would give anything to be able to start the rest of my life.  I love Josh so much, and I enjoy spending every minute with him.  I hate leaving him and Sophie at night.  I actually fell like a horrible mom for leaving them.  But I know that one day it will pay off and that is what keeps me motivated.
So why do I want to wait to  have kids.  Well one day Josh and I were having this discussion and this is what I said without realizing it: "Josh I really want to spend at least one year with you where it is just you and me.  I want to spend time with you without anyone else." As soon as those words came out of my mouth, I realized how selfish it was! And that is the moment that I realized that I needed to get that selfishness out of me BEFORE I stop birthing babies.  For some odd reason I truly just want to spend some time with him, I really just want one vacation with him without a child.  And all this made me realize that although I love kids, and cannot wait to be a mom, maybe I do need to wait at least one year after we are married to have them.
I keep praying to God, and I know that when it is time for me to have children, then I will have them.  He has answered my prayers before, and I know that he will do it agian. So until then, I guess that I will just have to spoil and love any child that I meet along the way (really wish I had nieces or nephews, Jordan can you have babies please?)